I'm not even going say how long it's been since I posted last... That just happens with me.
My sister Autumn is engaged. How do I feel about that?! No, don't be worried, I'm thrilled for her actually. I can see how absolutely and completely happy she is. I feel like she has found the perfect guy for her. It really does seem that when you stop focusing on what isn't yours or what isn't happening in your life, and just live life the best you know how, that is when God blesses you with everything you could desire. At least that is what happened to Autumn. It makes me happy to see her so radiant. I know that together they will grow and be just who the other needs, to bring them to the Celestial kingdom, and their own happily ever after.
Of course part of me wonders when it will be my turn to experience all of that joy. But upon reflection I know that I'm not ready yet. I'm not the person I want to be, or want my future spouse to end up with. I am learning. EVERYDAY! I'm closer than I was even two years ago, and I NOW know who that person is...who I am going to be, I even know it's achievable! :D I'm grateful for the struggles I've had in figuring this all out, for the silent as well as the loud and obnoxious.
In case you didn't know I live with the best roommate ever, my sister Elyse. I know that there were some doubters out there who didn't think we could live together... but really where's the faith?!!! Elyse and I are having a blast. This whole thing thus far has been really good for each of us. I love that I'm not alone, that there is someone that loves me at home. I'm not a loner, never have been, and most definitely never will be. I need people. Being around people helps me thrive, especially when I know they love me! I love that we don't even have to do anything special, it's just having another body in the room that's what helps. I love people!
So I moved back to Provo in September and I must admit being back in Provo has been an interesting change. I missed parts of it that's for sure...but others NOT at all. For example the crazy student population that has taken over the town... didn't miss that. What I did miss was being so close to my family, especially the Rex clan. For that reason alone I'm glad I'm back. This is where God has led me to be. I can't doubt that. Things are going to happen.
My new job is spectacular, and I feel incredibly appreciated. I work crazy-like, but now that the holidays are over and my best friend is coming and visiting from Maryland I will have a break, of some sort.... hopefully! haha! I've been apprehensive about seeing her again I have to admit... Long distance relationships are hard for me, and honestly, if it weren't for her calling me every week, I wouldn't have put much faith in there being any relationship at all. I hope that the trip is good for both of us. I Love her so much. Our lives have just been on completely separate and different paths, I hope we can reconnect!
Well as few words as this has been, this is my life right now in a nut-shell. Working up a storm and spending time with family. I have been entertaining the idea of taking a tae-kwon-do class... something completely new, but that will stretch me in several different aspects, mentally and physically. I think it's time I do something for me. I need to start taking care of myself and I think something like this is a good start. It's ME time!!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
lo que pasa, pasa
WHAT HAPPENS HAPPENS!
Since my last post, I started and quit a second job, I had a mission reunion, found out my mission president is moving to Peru because of his new church assignment, my youngest brother came home from his mission, I got a haircut, and I found time to clean and reorganize my bedroom.
You know sometimes things just get all mushed together. For me the last several months have been mushed. I've been really busy that I just didn't really have time to sit and think, let alone play catch up on my blog. I can look back tho, and even in this last little while I can see the hand of God in my life. He has led me to be where I am...and is teaching me daily.
I've been listening in my car to Jesus the Christ on c.d. I just finished yesterday. I have learned more about my Savior, and the feelings of peace and joy I got everyday because of it has helped me make it through some really long days. I know that Christ is my savior. I know that I have a purpose, and as I slow down enough to meditate and listen that I am led and guided. I am taught and inspired.
This last conference was really something special for me. I took the time to stop and listen. I have loved and listened to conference before, but I think for the first time I listened with the specific desire to know and feel of God's love for me, and I felt it! I received some direction and answer to some of my prayers. I'm not always a good person. I have my faults weaknesses and shortcomings... and I tend to be slow to remember God. But I know I can change. I want to change, and with my Savior and His continuous, and infinite atonement I can change. I can be better, and I want to be better. I am grateful for the atonement in my life. For the love of God, and for His servants the prophets who He has sent to guide us.
I have the best family in the WHOLE world. (including extended family) I have been very blessed. It was nice to have some time off and spend time with my family this past week. Michael coming home was a wonderful excuse!!! You know he's the same kid, but there is definitely something more mature and grown up about him. He has done some serious growing these last two years. I'm proud of him. It takes a lot to go on a mission, and stay there!!! ha ha! I'm glad that I was able to serve a mission, if only to appreciate that fact even more!
My sister's are all at home right now... although I'd love to convince them to live even closer to me, it is nice that they are as close as they are, and I get to see them more often. It's good for my mom (I think) to have them all at home right now. This will probably be the last time she has as many kids (although they are all grown-ups) at home. I know I probably wont ever live at home again, although I've entertained that idea...but only for a few seconds. It's Probably for the best. I'm actually friends with my mom now. Yep! I don't want to ruin that...best if I don't move home!
Well, now that I have more time on my hands, and am becoming a baker/pastry chef, once my work schedule is all figured out I will have time to make and keep some friends! That will be nice. I now have time to be more involved with church activities, and am available to serve!!! YIPPY! More time to make myself happy!
"THE MORE WE SERVE THE LESS WE SUFFER!" -Brent L. Top
Since my last post, I started and quit a second job, I had a mission reunion, found out my mission president is moving to Peru because of his new church assignment, my youngest brother came home from his mission, I got a haircut, and I found time to clean and reorganize my bedroom.
You know sometimes things just get all mushed together. For me the last several months have been mushed. I've been really busy that I just didn't really have time to sit and think, let alone play catch up on my blog. I can look back tho, and even in this last little while I can see the hand of God in my life. He has led me to be where I am...and is teaching me daily.
I've been listening in my car to Jesus the Christ on c.d. I just finished yesterday. I have learned more about my Savior, and the feelings of peace and joy I got everyday because of it has helped me make it through some really long days. I know that Christ is my savior. I know that I have a purpose, and as I slow down enough to meditate and listen that I am led and guided. I am taught and inspired.
This last conference was really something special for me. I took the time to stop and listen. I have loved and listened to conference before, but I think for the first time I listened with the specific desire to know and feel of God's love for me, and I felt it! I received some direction and answer to some of my prayers. I'm not always a good person. I have my faults weaknesses and shortcomings... and I tend to be slow to remember God. But I know I can change. I want to change, and with my Savior and His continuous, and infinite atonement I can change. I can be better, and I want to be better. I am grateful for the atonement in my life. For the love of God, and for His servants the prophets who He has sent to guide us.
I have the best family in the WHOLE world. (including extended family) I have been very blessed. It was nice to have some time off and spend time with my family this past week. Michael coming home was a wonderful excuse!!! You know he's the same kid, but there is definitely something more mature and grown up about him. He has done some serious growing these last two years. I'm proud of him. It takes a lot to go on a mission, and stay there!!! ha ha! I'm glad that I was able to serve a mission, if only to appreciate that fact even more!
My sister's are all at home right now... although I'd love to convince them to live even closer to me, it is nice that they are as close as they are, and I get to see them more often. It's good for my mom (I think) to have them all at home right now. This will probably be the last time she has as many kids (although they are all grown-ups) at home. I know I probably wont ever live at home again, although I've entertained that idea...but only for a few seconds. It's Probably for the best. I'm actually friends with my mom now. Yep! I don't want to ruin that...best if I don't move home!
Well, now that I have more time on my hands, and am becoming a baker/pastry chef, once my work schedule is all figured out I will have time to make and keep some friends! That will be nice. I now have time to be more involved with church activities, and am available to serve!!! YIPPY! More time to make myself happy!
"THE MORE WE SERVE THE LESS WE SUFFER!" -Brent L. Top
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Inspiration
I'm grateful for friends who share talents, lessons learned, and inspiring words.
If
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
Rudyard Kipling
If
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
Rudyard Kipling
Monday, October 11, 2010
General Conference...and Apples!
So I love, love, loved general conference. It may be partly the delicious apples, time with family, and incredibly awesome food, but of course I loved mostly the messages that the Prophets and Church leaders have been inspired to give us. That is the biggest reason for my excitement.
I admit, there are moments, because of family that I get distracted and don't hear what is going on. There are also moments that I get sleepy and the soothing voices of the speakers lull me into a prolonged doze. I love the spirit that I can feel no matter what. I also can feel of the love God has for me, and the love of my church leaders. I know that the Revelations given to the servants of God are for our benefit. They are the guidelines, and precepts we need at this trying time of earths history. (Thank goodness we get to hear and read them over and over! just in case I missed something the first time!)
Morals, and ethics, are being questioned everywhere, and in every setting. It's a comfort that God still speaks to His servants the prophets, and counsels, cautions, and even commands us still today. His guidance couldn't be more necessary.
I do admit that I have favorite speakers, who have a certain way of speaking and telling things just how it is, that I really enjoy; Elders Bednar, Holland, Oaks, and Packer to name a few. I enjoy the refreshing upfront way that things are said. Especially this last conference.
I honestly got a little riled up when I found out that there are certain groups of people who are trying to get Elder Packer to rescind certain comments he made in his last talk. I had to re-read the talk, to even get a clue as to why someone would be upset with what he had said. He was blunt, but other than that there wasn't anything in what he said that went against or beyond the teachings and doctrines of our church. There are examples from the Old Testament, to the New Testament and even in current revelation, that supports everything Elder Packer taught. It even saddens me that there are people who share my same faith, that have questioned whether or not what Elder Packer said was Christlike. He said everything he did in Love. I think the things he said were needed to be heard at precisely this time.
I know there will come a time that we cannot be fence sitters anymore, we will have to be either Hot or Cold, not "lukewarm" as it says in the bible (Rev 3:15-16). We will have to stand up for the things we believe we will have to choose whose side we are on. The Lords or Satan's. I stand with the Lord, and support Elder Packer in all of the words he spoke.
I know we have a loving Heavenly Father, He loves us. I know He wants all of His children to return to Him. He has provided a way. We have a Loving Elder Brother who paved that way for us, by sacrificing Himself as the ultimate gift. I am so grateful for Him, His example, and his Atonement. I know that we are given challenges, and temptations, to try us and help us be better people, but it is only by overcoming those things, and sincerely repenting that we can become who God has intended us to be, and return to Him and His loving arms.
I know God wont give us more temptation than we can handle, but with that temptation make a way for us to escape. (1cor. 10:13) God loves us, ALL of us, He wouldn't suffer us to be born someway, or with a certain challenges, and not be able to overcome them. We can choose to act, or react. We choose our attitude, our beliefs, and what we each deem important, and moral. God has given us that gift of agency, to act and choose.
I know God loves His children, and isn't exclusive in that love. At times in may be harder to feel His love, but honestly that is often only the fault of the individual, by distancing him/herself from God, and not the fault of the Father. God Loves and Forgives. I choose to be on His side.
To end this overflowing and drawn-out thought on conference, ...let me just say I stand behind the words of All the Prophets and Apostles, including Elder Packer, But specifically at this time the words of Joshua when he said "choose you this day whom ye sill serve; ...but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." (Joshua 24:15) and "serve him with all your heart and with all your soul." (Joshua 22:5)
If you're going to do something, do it good, and with meaning! Stand up for what you Believe and Are!
I admit, there are moments, because of family that I get distracted and don't hear what is going on. There are also moments that I get sleepy and the soothing voices of the speakers lull me into a prolonged doze. I love the spirit that I can feel no matter what. I also can feel of the love God has for me, and the love of my church leaders. I know that the Revelations given to the servants of God are for our benefit. They are the guidelines, and precepts we need at this trying time of earths history. (Thank goodness we get to hear and read them over and over! just in case I missed something the first time!)
Morals, and ethics, are being questioned everywhere, and in every setting. It's a comfort that God still speaks to His servants the prophets, and counsels, cautions, and even commands us still today. His guidance couldn't be more necessary.
I do admit that I have favorite speakers, who have a certain way of speaking and telling things just how it is, that I really enjoy; Elders Bednar, Holland, Oaks, and Packer to name a few. I enjoy the refreshing upfront way that things are said. Especially this last conference.
I honestly got a little riled up when I found out that there are certain groups of people who are trying to get Elder Packer to rescind certain comments he made in his last talk. I had to re-read the talk, to even get a clue as to why someone would be upset with what he had said. He was blunt, but other than that there wasn't anything in what he said that went against or beyond the teachings and doctrines of our church. There are examples from the Old Testament, to the New Testament and even in current revelation, that supports everything Elder Packer taught. It even saddens me that there are people who share my same faith, that have questioned whether or not what Elder Packer said was Christlike. He said everything he did in Love. I think the things he said were needed to be heard at precisely this time.
I know there will come a time that we cannot be fence sitters anymore, we will have to be either Hot or Cold, not "lukewarm" as it says in the bible (Rev 3:15-16). We will have to stand up for the things we believe we will have to choose whose side we are on. The Lords or Satan's. I stand with the Lord, and support Elder Packer in all of the words he spoke.
I know we have a loving Heavenly Father, He loves us. I know He wants all of His children to return to Him. He has provided a way. We have a Loving Elder Brother who paved that way for us, by sacrificing Himself as the ultimate gift. I am so grateful for Him, His example, and his Atonement. I know that we are given challenges, and temptations, to try us and help us be better people, but it is only by overcoming those things, and sincerely repenting that we can become who God has intended us to be, and return to Him and His loving arms.
I know God wont give us more temptation than we can handle, but with that temptation make a way for us to escape. (1cor. 10:13) God loves us, ALL of us, He wouldn't suffer us to be born someway, or with a certain challenges, and not be able to overcome them. We can choose to act, or react. We choose our attitude, our beliefs, and what we each deem important, and moral. God has given us that gift of agency, to act and choose.
I know God loves His children, and isn't exclusive in that love. At times in may be harder to feel His love, but honestly that is often only the fault of the individual, by distancing him/herself from God, and not the fault of the Father. God Loves and Forgives. I choose to be on His side.
To end this overflowing and drawn-out thought on conference, ...let me just say I stand behind the words of All the Prophets and Apostles, including Elder Packer, But specifically at this time the words of Joshua when he said "choose you this day whom ye sill serve; ...but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." (Joshua 24:15) and "serve him with all your heart and with all your soul." (Joshua 22:5)
If you're going to do something, do it good, and with meaning! Stand up for what you Believe and Are!
Friday, September 24, 2010
So I've been reading a lot... a whole lot...
I've been reading almost a book a day... yep...it's true, ask my roomies!...maybe it's a good thing that I've decided to try to get part time job on top of my Pastry job. Maybe occupy some more of my time...
Although reading has been pretty great. I've been reading everything from Shannon Hale's Goose Girl, and the rest of the Bayern books... to the Wheel of Time series...
throw in a couple vampire books...my cookbooks and even some Nicholas Sparks... and well that's my life right now.
I probably should figure out when institute is so I can be a little more involved with people instead of hiding out in my apartment with yet another book...or not... Maybe.... maybe not... I admit.. I'm not ready to give up my books. Maybe some other day... :D Until then...any suggestions on what I should read next?
Although reading has been pretty great. I've been reading everything from Shannon Hale's Goose Girl, and the rest of the Bayern books... to the Wheel of Time series...
throw in a couple vampire books...my cookbooks and even some Nicholas Sparks... and well that's my life right now.
I probably should figure out when institute is so I can be a little more involved with people instead of hiding out in my apartment with yet another book...or not... Maybe.... maybe not... I admit.. I'm not ready to give up my books. Maybe some other day... :D Until then...any suggestions on what I should read next?
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Tay's Wedding...and Cake
I wish I had more photos, but I didn't use my camera, so I'm forced to wait till my sisters get around to giving me copies.
I must say that this wedding was incredible. I absolutely enjoyed the sealing. The temple President, Pinegar was inspired, to say the least! I felt like I was enlightened by the spirit, completely and utterly happy, and just good. It was something that God definately is smiling down on. I'm so grateful to have Kyra as a Sister. I love her, and probably would take her side if Taylor ever did anything stupid...which is quite possible! ha ha! Just teasing Tay. I love you too!
I had a blast making this cake, and am thrilled with how it turned out.
We all had a lot of fun. WELCOME to the Family Kyra!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
The Best Week EVER!
This weekend my little brother gets married. I can't believe it...really. Is he even old enough? ha ah... well At least I get an awesome sister-in-law out of the deal-io. I really like her. (I don't know if she realizes yet what she's getting herself into!) Our family is pretty crazy! if you've met us...you know! Anyway. I'm very excited! I'm making the wedding cake. It's gonna be intense! You should come to the reception just to see it! The whole thing is going to be pretty neat.
ANYWAY! things are awesome!...oh..and I saw Despicable Me. OH MY GOODNESS!!! THE BESTEST MOVIE EVER!!! 5 stars plus! I'm gonna go see it again it was that good!
ANYWAY! things are awesome!...oh..and I saw Despicable Me. OH MY GOODNESS!!! THE BESTEST MOVIE EVER!!! 5 stars plus! I'm gonna go see it again it was that good!
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